Proud mama alert!

Firstly, get me! I am typing this on my iPod touch sitting on the exercise bike at the gym whilst listening to music! I love technology, it's really taking my mind off the burning in the thighs!

Anyway, so yesterday was my ickle, wickle, precious, princess, 6lb6oz baby's first day at playgroup.

We packed her bag in the morning with her supplies and water and she insisted on putting a lipgloss in - wanted to look her best for the big moment!!

She went in no trouble whilst I had to be practically physically removed from the premises!

I fretted all morning about her and got there early to be greeted with the wonderful sight of her laughing, running and playin in the playground with her little mates. Looking at her there, wrapped up warm, rosy cheeked and giggling (with perfect lippy!) bathed in the bright winter sun I thought "we made it tilly! We got there in the end!"

Phew, sweat just dropped on my screen, I'm off on the rower!

Xxx
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Onwards and upwards!

I am going to restart this blog (not that it ever really started!) and stick at it as a place to document my change this year to a more positive me.

I am so much better than I was but have taken a little dip recently which culminated in a big old WEEP last night about the realisation that I am not as well as I would like to think.

Talking with a very good friend and a very good sister I have started to think of a way to continue my recovery and not to continue "treading water"

1. A phonecall has been put in to relate, we went to relate in october to start rebuilding the relationship that has been put under huge strain. For one reason or another we havent followed it up so I made the positive step of requestion the booking form. Must make sure I act on it when it comes!

2. A decision has been made to get rid of distractions that take my eye off the ball. What is most important to me right now are (in no particular order) - my marriage, my kids, taking care of the house, losing some weight, doing some exercise, being around people who have a positive effect on me. So, anything that doesnt positively contribute to something in that list is GOING!

I have felt really anxious and fragile all day but it has not all been bad.

5 positive things I can say today

1. I made a tasty and fairly nutritious tea for the kids

2. I didnt just leave the kitchen in chaos when I woke up depressed this morning

3. I enjoyed putting Mathilda to bed and took extra time reading stories.

4. I have some really good friends

5. I have a husband that loves me

Tomorrow I am starting back at slimming world to lose some of this weight that is literally weighing me down!