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Tuesday, 2 February 2010

Mathilda's Birth Story


I have just come across my birth story of Mathilda. After everything that happened I think I have consciously or subconsciously blocked out a lot of her early months:( I have very little memory of a lot of it, I can't actually imagine what she was like or transport myself back to those memories like I can with Megan and Harvey. If I thought about this too long I could get very upset but in the spirit of positivity I will celebrate what was a fantastic birth, written by me a few days afterwards.






This birth story was written the day after I had her on the 4th January 2008

"The WONDERFUL birth of Mathilda Alice at 01.50am yesterday morning. Weighing a petite 6lb 6oz.

Well....................what can I say? One of the first experiences on my doula journey and training was the debriefing of my first two births. I started to learn why I had the bad experiences I did and yearned to have a chance to do things differently.

I was 41 weeks on Thursday and in my attempt to avoid any threat of induction I went for a sweep. I had been niggling on and off for a few days and wasnt too suprised to hear that I was 2cm and very soft and favourable. Midwife gave me a "very good, thorough sweep" and I left already feeling crampy.

This continued throughout the day but was barely uncomfortable - I went out for lunch with David and kids, did some shopping, some housework (cleaned floors on hands and knees as midwife had mentioned position felt fine but head was possibly slightly posterior) and at 7.30ish I started to feel what I felt were more like isolated contractions as opposed to cramps (I was round at a friends watching the kids play in the snow!).

I found it easy enough to ignore these and didnt dare think that I was going into labour naturally as I didnt want to get my hopes up!!

I made bolognaise sauce, watched a DVD (knocked up funnily enough!) and just kept very active. Looking back I realise that I didnt sit down or lie down for the entire duration - I instinctively stayed upright and just moved freely.

At 10.30pm I was starting to register these contractions as slightly painful and need to concentrate on them when they came - mainly by leaning over birthing ball or doing a hip wiggle!

At midnight they really notched up, it was only at this point I would ever say there were really very painful but when it came it came, I rang the hospital and midwife urged me to come in when she heard me have 3 contractions in the 5 minutes I spoke to her!!

Called in Francesca to come and be with the kids and Nicola, my birth partner arrived. Off we went to hospital, I leaned over the back seat of the car on the way in, repeating the mantra "I can do this, I can do this" with each contraction.

On arrival to hospital I just wanted gas and air!! I was examined at 1.20am and was 5cm dilated and was then moved into the delivery room, I agreed to go on the monitor for a few contractions and the very first one we listened into the heartrate was quite low (early decelerations) straight away talks of transferring to main hospital began. The contractions suddenly changed and I was getting a long painful contraction immediately followed by another peak and what I now realise was a pushing sensation. Midwife had another peak and the head was crowning! I went from 5-10cm in less than the time it took to change rooms and get on the bed! The decels were because the head had descended so quickly.

I barely remember pushing, it has been documented as 5 minutes 2nd stage and I can remember my body doing it all for me, none of this chin on chest stuff I just breathed through the sensation and helped body along. I had a VIVID experience of transition whilst all of this was happening and it was like fireworks going off in my head, all massive intense bright colours!

I looked down and Mathilda sailed out in meconium waters and promptly pooed - I thought it was me until someone pointed out otherwise!

David cut the cord and I popped her on my chest, she rooted and latched herself on within a few minutes and started feeding really well.

The placenta took 15 minutes, 3 times longer than the delivery of baby!!!

Midwife checked me over and announced I just had a graze and no need for stitches!

Within an hour of arriving at hospital I was having my after birth cuppa, gazing at Mathilda and in utter disbelief that I had such a wonderful time.

The difference in how I feel after this birth compared to my other two highly medical inductions is amazing - my "bits" dont feel any different, I dont feel like I have been run over, yes I am tired but also euphoric and so damn PROUD of my body.

My perception of the whole labour and birth is completely positive and looking back I think I was awash with endorphins/oxytocin as I didnt really feel any of it as painful, just very strong.

Anyway, Im sure you have heard quite enough about that, just wanted to get it all down as it really was such an important experience to me.

Thank you to everyone whose input has helped me to finally have the birth experience I have craved xxxx"

How sad, following my own blog!


I only have 1 follower :( Well, 2 now but one of those is me!

I still haven't figured out blogland well enough to know how you actually get anyone to read your blog!

Or maybe people do read but don't comment or follow, if you do please say hello!

xxx

My beautiful heart shaped garden!

Last spring I worked my arse off to transform the wilderness that we called the front garden into a lovely rockery complete with white rocks, pink flowers and a heart shaped bamboo feature in the middle! I absolutely loved it!

Now however, I am ashamed to say it is looking almost as bad as it did before I even started - I am DEFINITELY going to get out there and restore it to it's former prettiness as soon as the weather gets a bit better.

Isn't it precious!?



A cheeky charity shop visit

I L.O.V.E charity shops with a capital L! I was driving home from my sister's house today and passed Oxfam in Jesmond and thought oooooooooooooooooooooooooh will just have a quick look.

Came away with three books! All for a mere £3!

The first one is an absolute gem! It is called "Every Womans Luck Book" It is a classic self help book from the 1930's on how to bag a husband.

Has loads of corking information such as looking for your potential husband based on the shape of his jaw!!

I will update with quotes as I get into it!


Then I got Essential Aromatherapy - A beginner's guide to choosing and using essential oils for beauty treatments, massage and health remedies. 

I am really interested in using essential oils more. Would love to be able to understand the different benefits and use them around the home in candles and with massage. 
Lastly, Meditations for Women Who Do Too Much - The bestselling collection of
meditations for women whose lives are too busy. Meditations For Women Who
Do Too Much speaks directly to the hearts and minds of the millions of women
who do too much of everything: work, worry, organize, and take care of
everyone in their lives!except themselves. With wisdom, humour, and insight,
these meditations -- paired with quotations from women of many ages,
cultures, and perspectives -- help women recognize and change their patterns,
slow down, and take the time to
listen to their own needs.
When I read the synopsis on the back cover I was struck by the term
"careaholic" the term used for someone who spends so much time and energy
helping or being involved with others they leave no room for
themselves. I have come to the conclusion recently that this is exactly what
I do
, I think as a distraction technique from tackling my "ishoos" head on.
So, there you go. My name is Rebecca Hills and I am a careaholic! 
I haven't read much of the book yet, but flicking through it looks full of good,
sage advice on slowing the world down and concentrating on the important
things - exactly what I want to do!



Weigh in Tuesday - week 3

I lost 2lbs tonight taking me to 9lbs in 3 weeks :) I am really chuffed with myself but every time I think of just HOW MUCH I need to lose to get me to where I want to be it all feels like too much. So, I'm going to concentrate on this first stone. 5 more pounds to go and I want that off in the next fortnight!

I am at the gym in the morning and I am going to work reaaaaaaaaaaaaaallllllllllllyyyyyyyyyyyyyy hard!

Monday, 1 February 2010

I really want to make one of these!

I love heart shapes (as you will know if you read the title of the blog and/or know me!)

I'm missing a couple of the garlands I had up at christmas and think these lusciously cute handmade heart garlands might just have to replace them. All for the spirit of valentines day but I cant promise I will take them down when it is over!

I found thise idea on this blog
Insanity: doing the same thing over and over again and expecting different results.

Albert Einstein

This is my quote of the day!!

Clever bloke that Einstein fella!