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Showing posts with label depression. Show all posts
Showing posts with label depression. Show all posts

Monday, 25 January 2010

Progress, not perfection!


Flylady (the funny little cartoon lady that tells me what to clean) has a motto "progress not perfection" which I am adopting as my own!

Since I last posted things have been moving along nicely!

Weight - In my first week at slimming world I lost 4.5lbs (yay) and find out tomorrow how I have done at my second weigh in, I'm hoping against hope that I manage 2.5lbs and that will be my first half stone off - a good milestone to reach to keep the motivation up!

Exercise - I have been to the gym three times now! I am hoping to get into a routine of going every monday, wednesday and friday. The gym I am going to is placed in an Elderly Day Centre and some of the grannies and grandads are putting me to shame on the treadmill at the moment - the shame!!! But I am enjoying it and going to definitely keep at it - not just for the figure, I'm really hoping it helps with the low moods.

Anti Depressants - I am still on 75mg of Venlafaxine and whilst I am not coming off it as quickly as I would like, it is still half of my starting dose. After I have gained a bit of control of my weight I am going to restart the slow weaning progress.

House - things with the house are great, partly due to a massive clearout and partly due to flylady's wise teachings (;) I am managing the house WAY better. Chipping away a little bit all of the time is having a massive impact. No more mad all day cleaning sessions when I cant stand the chaos anymore. Just a little bit here, 15 minutes there and sticking to some regular routines is working wonders (and makes it so much easier to actually get up and face the day!)

Oh, and I am going for a (shhhh..... colonic) on Wednesday, I am, quite literally shitting myself about it. Trying very hard not to think about the tube up the bum aspect and more about the positive effects. It is going to be a fresh start for my poor abused body!! Out with the toxins and in with the goodness. Hopefully I will be less likely to put alcohol, cigarettes and crap food in once it has had a good old wash!





Monday, 11 January 2010

Onwards and upwards!


I am going to restart this blog (not that it ever really started!) and stick at it as a place to document my change this year to a more positive me.

I am so much better than I was but have taken a little dip recently which culminated in a big old WEEP last night about the realisation that I am not as well as I would like to think.

Talking with a very good friend and a very good sister I have started to think of a way to continue my recovery and not to continue "treading water"

1. A phonecall has been put in to relate, we went to relate in october to start rebuilding the relationship that has been put under huge strain. For one reason or another we havent followed it up so I made the positive step of requestion the booking form. Must make sure I act on it when it comes!

2. A decision has been made to get rid of distractions that take my eye off the ball. What is most important to me right now are (in no particular order) - my marriage, my kids, taking care of the house, losing some weight, doing some exercise, being around people who have a positive effect on me. So, anything that doesnt positively contribute to something in that list is GOING!

I have felt really anxious and fragile all day but it has not all been bad.

5 positive things I can say today

1. I made a tasty and fairly nutritious tea for the kids
2. I didnt just leave the kitchen in chaos when I woke up depressed this morning
3. I enjoyed putting Mathilda to bed and took extra time reading stories.
4. I have some really good friends
5. I have a husband that loves me

Tomorrow I am starting back at slimming world to lose some of this weight that is literally weighing me down!